well ya know
i have been reading all the reviews that have been coming out about
our new record
some are good
actually most are really good
and few are bad
i am the freak in the band that reads all this stuff
i dont know why
i just like to
sometimes they are really mean spirited where they will make a
personal attack against one of us
but i guess when ya put your heart out there
that is part of the deal
there was one review by an english newspaper
where the guy really hated us
and it was full of insults and descriptions about how terrible and
worthless we are and how inane our music is

and the guy mentioned that nick cave really thought we were a shitty
band
and printed a quote that nick cave had said in that regard

for a second that hurt my feelings
because i love nick cave
i have all of his records
i love the birthday party
and i love the bad seeds with and without blixa bargeld but mostly with
and mick harvey is an outstanding musician
and i lie on the floor and completely open myself to those records
and i let them wash all through me
because they are beautiful
and i dont care if nick cave hates my band
because his music means everything to me
because he is one of my favorite songwriters and singers and
musicians of all time
and i love all the incarnations of the bad seeds
and i rock out to 'from her to eternity'
and cry to the songs on 'nocturama'
and when 'murder ballads' came out
i listened to it with all of me
and i had terrible nightmares for a week and woke up convinced
someone was lurking in the dark about to kill me
but i still listened to it because it was so deeply great

but it only hurt my feelings for a second
because my love is bigger than all that shit
and if he thinks my band is lame
that's o.k.

ya know i respect nick cave so much
he is the real deal
and his music works on so many levels, visceral, spiritual,
intellectual, and they are sonically exciting

and my band, well, we grew up our group of friends
the way we are
and we just sound like what we do when we get together and start playing
and i love who we are

so i still love nick cave anyways
and no asshole journalist can ever take that away from me